Kali Energy~ Destruction, Chaos, …Beauty? Abundance and Spiritual Responsibility

It has been 6 months since the fire of our home. I cannot believe all the change that has happened in the last 6 months. This is the last Full Moon I will spend at our rental house.
Kali is the energy of the Goddess, she comes in the form of Destruction and Chaos, for those of you who have no idea what this is, please stay open minded. For those of you who have studied and experienced archetypes, follow along. You will get this…
She is also creatress of Beauty from the fire. I have seen this first person over this last period. It has been painfully beautiful. I was scared to even talk about Kali for months after Labor Day, even until this week.
I have used Kali Mudra in yoga and taught for years to ‘Burn out whatever no longer serves you in your life!’ I had no NO idea what this really meant. Until I experienced it.
Then as I realized, Kali is fierce, she is viscious, she is super scary. And my human-ness needs taming and controlling!!!! I cant go crying to my momma, she is not on this Earth plane. So therefore I behave like a brat and get what I want at no consideration for others that are close to me. I can get out of hand like a roaring fire! I need this energy in my life to keep me in line! This is the energy of a strict mother and she damn well knows how to WHIP MY ASS.

(See photo above, in a Crystal Grid at a Goddess Circle in early 2014 Goddess Card Kali Ma was turned up at the center, long before any of her evidence showed up in my life).

I need this from Kali Ma, especially in the area of financial responsibility. We have been gifted with tens of hundreds of thousands of dollars through this process of recovering this devastatingly huge loss, and I am responsible for taking care of directing these funds to be allotted in the proper places. It is a huge responsibility, and for this lesson I am becoming strictly obedient. With this lesson, I will continue to Receive (the energy of Lakshmi, the Goddess of Abundance).

Back in April of 2014 I finished about 35 to 40 hours of my tattoo with an 8 hour session in a row with Melissa Southern before she moved. Little did I know that was only the beginning...

The intensity of that session released some pent up emotions that I havenever been able to let go of since the passing of my mother in May of 2008. I thought THAT session was intense. Then the next month Duane Farrell, my dad, was diagnosed with the big C. 5 months later is when our house burned. 2014 was the year of Transformation. I’m still grateful for my connecting to the Great Spirit and the all knowingness that All is Well in my World. This knowing and connecting to something much greater has been and still is what is being me and my family through. I do appreciate your love and light and your intent of lifting us up. Blessings. Namaste. #letitgo

I know Creator has MUCH more abundance in store for me, my family, my team and my students, my followers and supporters. You are receiving, too. This is only the beginning my friends! Hang on for the ride! With these blessings I fully intent to pay this forward in giving my tools and gifts:
Yoga
Mediatation
Reiki
Nutrition
Teacher Training

And with these tools WE are SHiFTING the planet to a higher vibration! I am allowing many obstacles to be removed (the energy of Ganesha). Through this process of not having the responsibility of having a studio open I have rediscovered my personal yoga and meditation practice. I have FULLY launched my nutriton biz onto a whole nother level and have actually been home to cook dinners for my family. (My 16 year old boy really appreciates this!) I have been present daily for my family, but not nearly enough, as preoccupation of building this house is a FULL TIME JOB!
Meanwhile. I am totally relaunching our website this month, hosting a Reiki 1 and 2 Attunement and Workshop,
AND
with my OMazing Yoga Teacher Trainees on my BETA Online 200 Streaming Yoga Teacher Training, we have rewritten and edited my manual for publication, added 3 modules of material for future trainees and are almost 2/3 finished with recording the 200 hours!
To add another huge focus, my father is still in a rehab center and is not healing as quickly as we would have hoped from his esophogeal cancer surgery.  He is very short of oxygen due to lack of red blood cells. Please continue to pray for Duane, my daddy. He is finally eating, and the rehab dietician director makes him his fave meals + blends him 2-3 Juice Plus Complete whole food shakes a day and adds in 3 caps of Orchard, Garden and Vineyard food powder into each one. So at least he is getting fed! We just want him to get stronger so he can get out of bed! He said that the bed feels like a prison. =-(

For those of you who would love to take a yoga class or meditation I have added a new space on my website to take FREE audio classes.  More classes added monthly. Also, with the website relaunch this month all Y4L members will receivea special password  for a private page to take other free classes and many other online benefits!

We have had 2 weeks of freezing weather, there were many days that the contractors could not come in. to work on the house. We are very ready to get all the final details completed in our house build. We are awaiting the city to give us the certificate of occupancy on the house! This week we have finished our ‘spa master bath’ tile, installed our marble countertops, today he set all of the sinks and all the electrical is done, so now the heat and air is going to be finished.
We are set to move in to our home over Spring Break on Wednesday this week!!!!

The Y4L Cabin is finally scheduled to turn on the power Monday or Tuesday! Next, our guys will install the walls, ceiling and put up the Far Infrared heat panels. We are looking at completion by 3/31!

*** I know how you may feel if you have been waiting for classes for the last 2 months. Without your support I could not have afforded the luxury of taking time to build this cabin. We have so much appreiation for all of you who have kept your membership and we have some special things we are doing for you, to give back.***
We currently are also looking CLOSELY at the City of Ovilla guidelines to make sure that they will not do anything to keep us from having a biz (our yoga practice) on my land. So I have hired some legal help in the form of pro bono friends who are really smart and know these things! Please hold space that EXACTLY what Spirit wants to unfold will do so in a timely manner and for the highest good of all beings.