Today I choose Joy. Through the Bittersweet I trust.

Today is Bittersweet. Its my daughter’s 11th day of being on this planet. <3

This morning, in the pre-dawn blackness at 5am, my Chihuahua Yaapana, got taken by a wild animal.

So many serendipitous events today. This morning as I cried by the river by our cOMmunity fire in meditation, as I questioned why now why on her birthday? WE loved that little dog so so much. The pain is very deep, yet it is the day of her birth.
As I sat there watching the sun rise I was grateful for being up, even tho it was for being waked with the horrendous realization from my hubby that he ran off barking and didn’t return with Cherry, the Caveiler King Charles.
I realized that at every moment NOW …

I CHOOSE JOY.
I choose joy.
Through the hurt and tears I am grateful for the time he was with us. Im thankful that today was the day it happened as my Best Friend came in town as planned, and was here to hold me and sit with me in silence in the sun as it warmed my hollow heart.
I allow the sun to give me life.

I sat with my Bestie by the river and held Upward Plank with the sun low on the sky shining warmth on my heart center. I sat in Dandasana and grounded and breathed in. Letting go of the why.
We went to feed our new horse Cochise and I talked our son into coming. He did, forcing him off the computer was a trust issue. He enjoyed Cochise and watching the sunset with us.
Today we may never know WHY. We simply TRUST in the Divine plan. As I write my best girl is making me a delicious meal, for our entire family. I am blessed!

I TRUST.
I believe.
I receive.
<3